My job = To find my purpose on this earth and live it.
About 13 (August, 2000) years ago I left my home town in Virginia on a quest. I was spending most of my free time getting drunk, taking advantage of my parents kindness and free rent, as well as pushing away the people in my life that were willing to help me. I was doing absolutely nothing to contribute to either my own well-being or that of the world as a whole.
I needed a change, so I left.
Call it running away if you want but it was something that needed to be done. I was headed west to Southern California.
Eight years later (2008) I finished my Masters Degree from the University of San Francisco. I had just spend 40,000 dollars to tell me exactly what I didn’t want to do with my life.
The eight years I had been gone from Virginia and on my own were easily the most influential years of my life. I had finished both my undergraduate and graduate schooling, started reading (up until the age of 21 I had never read a book from beginning to end), was exercising consistently and eating right, building personal relationships, living on my own and providing for myself. I was on my way… or so I thought.
Although I looked aesthetically fit my health at the time was poor. I was exhausted both physically and mentally from school, working two jobs, and dealing with a long-term relationship that had ended a few months earlier due to my life long battle with vulnerability and failure to commit to anything.
My personal finances were a mess. I was in debt because of impulsive spending based on the idea that more “things” would create more happiness in my life. I was a mess, I had so many questions about who I was and what the hell I was doing.
I was too embarrassed to ask for help from my parents, friends, or other loved ones mostly because of my stubbornness. I had never asked for help before, I didn’t even really know how to do it. I needed a break, a chance to hit the reset button and start from scratch. I knew I had an interest in seeing more of the world and what it had to offer, so I figured this was as good a time as any to start traveling. So I did, I booked a trip around the world that would take me from:
Los Angeles, California – Tokyo, Japan – New Delhi, India – Bangkok, Thailand – Cairo, Egypt – Paris, France
In the spirit of my favorite show of all time LOST, lets flash forward back to my graduation from grad school. This was it right? I was done with school, I now could land that big gig and start living the life I was supposed to be living. The only problem was when I got to this point I realized I had never asked myself if this is what I really wanted.
And as it turns out it wasn’t.
I wasn’t ready for the kush job with the nice salary, the committed relationship, the house, the car, the conventional routine. I wasn’t ready to fall into line and start the march towards traditional living. I had too many adventures I still wanted to seek out, questions to ask, trials and errors to make, experiences to partake, and learning to do.
What was I suppose to do? I knew I wanted to become the best version of myself. To really start to close that gap between what I was capable of and what I was currently doing.
So what I started doing was asking better questions.
When I set out on my trip that was my goal, to get into my head and figure what it really was I wanted out of my life. I also figured that this was the best way for me to contribute to the world as a whole.
So from August 1st, 2008 until now I have been on a relentless pursuit towards becoming the best version of myself. During this time I have read a countless number of books, participated in a number of personal development courses, and even went back to school to study Optimal living (Big ups to Brian and the Entheos crew).
During this time I have kept a few notebooks and journals to document the process. I thought today would be as good a day as any to share some of the goodness with you
I hope that you find it as valuable as I have during your own journey.